Wreck This Journal: In progress part II

(Originally posted January 23rd 2012)

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This page is for handprints. Get them dirty, press down.

Sew this page. (This isn't my favorite but still came out alright.)

Throw something. (Cotton balls dipped in Puffy Paint, dropped onto page.)

Trace your hand.

Self diagnosing myself.

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I last mentioned my health problems two entries ago (here), where I shared the list I’ve started keeping of my doctor appointments. I’ve been trying to make up my mind about how much information I want to discuss on this blog, and I’m still trying to decide, really only because it’s been rather depressing and would I really want to come back to read depressing blog entries? I’ve been whining all over my Twitter because I feel that’s what Twitter’s for, stream of consciousness and general “I’ll probably delete this at some point but I had to get it out of my head.”

Long story short, I still don’t know for sure what’s wrong with me, and I’ve been attempting to avoid having a nervous breakdown because of it. I’ll admit I’ve stopped seeing doctors for now other than my acupuncturist, I wanted a break from people prodding me only to focus on some random symptom that isn’t even bothering me, or ordering tests that end up not giving any sort of answer. I had to get an MRI and the results literally said “You have swelling under the skin. Here’s a list of diseases that might be the reason.” So I’ve been Googling my symptoms a lot in an attempt to figure out what could be wrong, or at least get suggestions on home remedies that might work. Baths with epsom salt help the swelling, so far that’s been about it. Swelling’s been an off-and-on symptom. Other home remedies included drinking apple cider vinegar mixed with honey, and dry brushing. Both are just gross and I couldn’t tell if either was helping, so I gave up for now.

This week I feel I made a tiny breakthrough regarding what has technically been an attempt to self diagnose myself. I have bursitis in both shoulders. Today I went to my acupuncture appointment and mentioned it to him, and he said a bad case of bursitis would definitely cause the kind of swelling that would block lymph nodes. He jabbed needles straight into both shoulder bursae which was as pleasant as the word “jabbed” makes it sound, but I’m hopeful that it’ll make a difference and I actually feel it already has, I’m not sitting here in almost paralyzing pain like I normally am by this hour. I should really be resting my arms but I’m not so good at sitting still and I’m even worse at self discipline.

I know self diagnosis is a horrible thing to do, but it’s been quite a wild ride. Bursitis seems to be a definite, if not the only issue. The test came back negative, but lyme disease could still be a possibility (false-negative results are annoyingly common for lyme disease). Also, maybe lymphedema. I finally managed to convince myself I do not have a flesh eating disease. There’s actually quite a list of diseases I’ve thought I might have, thanks to having the habit of looking up “symptoms of –” at 3am when I can’t fall asleep. You just haven’t lived until you’re attempting to get a decent night’s rest after being convinced you have “stone man syndrome.”

Reliving my childhood with MS-DOS games.

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When my family got our first computer, we had a lot of MS-DOS games that I loved to play. I was recently reminiscing about one in particular called Paganitzu and wondered if I’d be able to find it online, maybe I’d be able to find an emulator or something. I discovered ClassicDOSgames.com, a site with a whole bunch of MS-DOS games you can play in your browser, and got really excited at the idea of being able to play them again.

Paganitzu! Monster Bash! Commander Keen! Crystal Caves! Jill of the Jungle! Duke Nukem! So many game titles I recognized from my childhood. I’ve been playing some of them, and… Well, my memories lied to me. I had a blast playing these games as a kid, back when this was just how games looked. Large pixels, neon colors, 8-bit sound, something called SoundBlaster that I always had to ask my dad if I should enable… It was all practically state-of-the-art 20+ years ago and now it’s just one big headache. Those neon colors are an eyesore and the noises make me turn down the speakers. Worst of all, the games just aren’t as fun as I remembered.

Seriously, could there possibly have been any more fuschia in those games?

Paganitzu made me rage-quit, I kept running into the same stupid spider. None of the games have a working Save function, so once you close the game, you lose your progress. Jill of the Jungle doesn’t have sound because something’s not compatible with today’s fancy-schmancy stuff.

But you know what? Being able to relive my memories was still enjoyable, even if the games themselves aren’t. I do wish they had a working version of Monkey Island though, I was so disappointed to see that link doesn’t go anywhere.

Did you play any computer games as a child that you wish you could find today?

Bullet journal: Why I’ve been so inactive.

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I’ve been in pretty bad shape since December, and have been going to so many doctor appointments I decided to keep track of them. I assumed I’d badly injured myself after shoveling snow, but I think the truth is something had already been wrong and it made itself known after I pulled a bunch of muscles. I’ve stumped four doctors so far, neither of them know what’s wrong but one of them was able to tell me the main problem is my lymphatic system stopped draining properly. So far that’s the closest anyone’s come to finding a diagnosis despite constant testing.

Thanks to a friend making a suggestion based on her own health problems, I called in a request to be tested for lyme disease, and have the number of yet another local doctor who might be able to help. I’m still waiting on those results, but I’m hoping soon I’ll be able to stop updating this list so frequently.

Alfred Rosenheim mansion, a.k.a the “Murder House” from American Horror Story.

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When the tv show American Horror Story began, I fell in love with that gorgeous house in the first season. Eventually I discovered the house was located in Los Angeles, so I looked up the address and it turns out the house was so close to my home, it would’ve been a crime for me not to go see it.

I found this out thanks to a Facebook friend who’d shared a link with me mentioning the house was for sale, you can see that article here, it has some amazing pictures of the interior. The actual house was used to film the first episode of AHS, but the rooms were then recreated on a backlot, so the film crew was able to change a few things without actually ruining such a beautiful building.

The house was built in 1902 by Alfred Rosenheim, a Los Angeles architect who also built the Doheny mansion which is equally as beautiful as this house, his private residence. It is now considered a Historical Property. At the time, it was located barely four miles from my home. I didn’t go inside since there wasn’t an Open House, and I didn’t want to trespass, and I couldn’t take a proper photo of the front of the house since a rather large tree is hiding half of it, but you still get a general idea of just how big this 10,440-square-foot home is.

You can read a little more about the house at its official website located here, and you can read more about the architect at Wikipedia.

And by the way, the actual mansion is definitely not haunted. The name “Murder House” is the nickname for the house based on this one used in the tv show.

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If you live in Los Angeles and you’d like to visit the house, the address is 1120 Westchester Place. It’s near Pico & Arlington, just west of Arlington and south of Olympic. It’s not in a gated community, but since it’s an actual home and located in a residential neighborhood, please respect the people who live there and don’t do anything crazy.

Moving from Los Angeles to Montana. (Part 4 – my Pinterest boards)

(If you missed it, click here to read part 1, here to read part 2, and here to read part 3.)

The first idea I had after my parents and I decided to move was to make Pinterest boards full of ideas and tips to help make our move as easy as possible. I ended up pinning some links I ended up not reading, and pinned tips I ended up not using. As a matter of fact, we never had a yard sale, so I didn’t look at anything I’d pinned in that board. So maybe this isn’t all great advice. Just the same, if you’re looking for more moving tips, here are my “holy crap I’m moving” Pinterest boards because some of it really was helpful for me.

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